You know that sensation when every sense-making thing in your world
comes crashing down?
Those moments of clarity in knowing you're scared to be alive
even right now?
When raindrops stain tops of your cheeks,
And feigned hope is drained.
Mope it out a few more weeks.
Someday maybe we'll grow from it,
But right now we're too engulfed in it.

I know this girl---real nice friend.
Used to study and play N64 on the weekends.
Big smile, with a really silly laugh.
smart enough to know when she was slipping on her path.
Caught my eye in a breezeway like windy debris,
I was uncertain with my emotions for a month, maybe three.
I Couldn't tell the difference between love and lust,
So I decided to spend time. I wasn't in a rush.
I flip-flopped on popping the ask out.
But figured in the end that as friends we'd last out
longer than romance. Sorry, there's no chance.
Seems I just necromanced the whole damn relation. Can
I get a revoke?
But she won't answer the phone!
Alone, I search for tones emulating emotions like---.
Like that.

I got clouds in my eyes,
And rain falls down from the sky.
No umbrella to deflect it,
so rain fall is all that I see.

Wet puffs in my eyes,
And tears drip down while I sigh.
Nothing to do but let it go
And hope that someday it'll be a rainbow.

Clouds in my eyes!
Rain falls from the sky!
Nothing to do but let it go.
And hope that someday it'll be a rainbow.
Whoa.

You said yes, turned around said no.
Didn't want to hurt my feelings, but yo,
let me down don't pick me and throw me.
For a few days I didn't say a word---
thought that I should calm down, and you seemed perturbed.
Little did I know your car would swerve
if I drove near. Not sure why though, so I didn't give chase,
just hoping that space wouldn't make our friendship erase.

Except now I'm starting to guessing my persistence is
another expression of my obsession.
whether or not awareness was there,
it's clear to me I've long been a creep.
Even if you ain't notice, you smelled it in the air
and you're nose knows it.
I'm a flirty boy and you're a flirty girl---
there'd be no reason for thinking the other ever would unfurl this
kind of heightened desire for sinking deeper than friendship.
My hands grip like sand is all my nails eat,
and I can't pretend that this is my first beach.
It hurts me, but I always come back for water.
I'm thirsty, but I'm always sipping the ocean.
This potion, salt water, is potent.
I'm motioning that I'm choking, but you just think that I'm acting.
Caeto lacking in awesomeness?
That's just preposterous.

Nah, what is though is that I keep thinking the people I like the most could ever like me back.
Settling is skill so many people have but I ain't put in 10,000 hours yet: so it's practice I lack.
But shoot maybe it's all of these missed shots that'll show me where my true target is at.
So I'll keep blasting past the attraction, until I find traction that's worth that attachment.

Dark clouds in my eyes!
Rain falls down from the sky!

Rain clouds in my eyes,
and drops fall down from the sky.
Nothing to do, but let it go
and hope that someday it'll be a rainbow

Dark clouds in the sky,
and rain falls from the sky.
Nothing to do, but let them go.
I know by the end of the storm it'll be a rainbow.